Thoughts on Survival

Quantum Source ... Quantum World ... Quantum Void ... Quantum You!

For some time I had been investigating what feels like a 'clench' in the center of my being — a sense of being held in a trap within the perceived 3-4 dimensional world by an irksome force both within me and beyond any influence I might bring against it. Today, however, I was guided to simply open myself to it. Let it be, let it show me what it is and possibly what it wants.

This brought a sense of peace to the proceedings, most welcome, and the thought came that this clench corresponds to what in past times the occultists and philosophers referred to as “the dweller on the threshold,” an entity from the collective human consciousness who stands at the border between this dimension and any and all of the others, evaluating one’s qualifications for entering the mysterious realms. Once this was acknowledged, he revealed himself—and here I refer to him with the masculine pronoun only because that’s how he appeared to me—as a characater in a long dark double-breasted coat, high leather boots, and a bicorn (think Napoleonic era) hat, issuing an invitation, an open door, a portal, into a vastness characterized primarily as profound silence in which anything and everything imaginable might reside.

At this point, I recognized with a sense of wonder that in the past he had been taking the form of all the great teachers I had come across in this life, their presence, rather than their teachings or characteristics, the very presence that had impressed and drawn me into their influence in the first place.

It strikes me now that he takes the form of the hard-wired instinct toward survival that at the time may have seemed a roadblock against higher levels of realization—based on misunderstandings of those wisdom teachings—interpretations now dissolved by the transformation of that instinct into a portal into Mystery.

Which allows me to reflect that this uncomfortable “clench” has served to keep me anchored in this world, and has been revealed as the very conduit through which the mystery of being flows unimpeded—despite my personal limitations—through me into experience.

And maybe this fits into the idea expressed by Bill about the dissolving and re-creation by Quantum Source of the human forms, bringing forth (perhaps in successive stages) Homo Quantum into the world