The Thread of My Life

Mona Posner

1/4/20241 min read

I have spent many moments in the last year

looking at the thread that has run throughout my life,

that which has been central to my life,

that which is closest to me.

It is clear to me that it has been about

silence, truth and the God within.

For as long as I can remember, I felt God in my heart.

When I was young, I wondered why we had to go somewhere to pray

because God was in me

and it wasn't helpful for me to be in a formalized setting to find that truth.

I remember, during a meditation when I was around 25,

I expanded to a bigger space than my concept of God.

It was a bit unnerving ...

but I just made God bigger.

In the last many years, I haven't known where to put God

because the vastness is infinite -

everything and nothing at the same time

so where do I put God - or is God just a concept?

I don't know what to say about the search for truth,

because as soon as I thought I knew it,

it became something else.

And after all these years, when I look at truth,

I have come to feel that there aren't any absolute truths

except for maybe the truth of the moment.

As far as Silence goes - it is always with me.

I stopped searching several years ago – got off ‘the path’.

I realized that there is nowhere to go

except to deepen into.

What stirs me is going deeper into.