The End

We ended Bill’s first Quantum Immersion Program today.

I am speechless. I can feel the silence.

And yet, there are some words.

It was funny. Today, Bill asked me several times to get out of my head.

He basically had no time for my small parts.

He described them as now being violently strangled,

way down in my unconscious depths.

I didn’t care that he was seemingly uncaring. It was perfect.

After they were all dead, he described their tombstone:

“Here lies poor me.

Here lies the one who tried so hard.

Here lies the one who doubted herself so much.”

And then he turned the headstone around

and there was inscribed nothing on the new side except:

“This is the me that is going forward.”

It was as if all of those small parts of me had never existed.

That is what I am feeling now.

It is as if none of the bad stuff in the world ever existed.

It wasn’t created. It wasn’t destroyed. There is just nothing.

From a quantum point of view, there has always only been nothing

and all there will ever be is nothing.

Of course, from a human point of view, this is not the case.

But today was the day

my divorce from my humanity and all of humanity was finalized.

It will still take some getting used to.

Imagine living with your ex after the divorce … until death do you part.

This is my death.

It has been a long drawn-out affair

because I am not only dying to who I think I am.

I am also dying to who I think every single man, woman and child is.

Once I am completely and totally dead and buried,

with my tombstone wiped clean, then I can serve humanity.

On one level of existence this death is already complete.

On several other levels,

my consciousness is still awakening to this fact.

But today, in this moment, I am awake.

I am alive and breathing my nothingness.

I am dead to the human I used to be.

I am free of my ties to collective humanity.

Those ties burned to death after being locked in the church of my womb.

I am experiencing their freedom as they float up in the arms of angels.

Their memory of all their pain is erased

as the past itself is erased in the present moment of bliss

that is heaven.

Empathy for those left behind is replaced with unconditional love.

There is nothing but unconditional love in this space.

But I do not linger long in these Divine realms.

I feel them falling away with everything else

until there is nothing but silence.

Nothing but stillness.

Nothing but nothing.

It feels like it is time to chill here in the nothingness.

I have dipped into this space many times before

but now, there is nothing else.

The everything that I have been so connected to is gone.

Now is the time for nothing ….

No, there is no time. There is no future.

Right now, there is nothing.

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