The Emptiness Journey

So, it’s been about two months sinceBill came out of his cave

and invited us to join him in the emptiness of the Quantum Void.

This sojourn could be a once-a-week session or a nightly intention or something more.

Since others are also on this path

It’s useful to check in and share how the journey is going.

It actually started in my case when I was a teenager.

I came across Aldous Huxley’s classic, The Perennial Philosophy,

and began exploring the second floor and the basement of the proverbial “house,”

first through meditation and later shadow work.

Recently, I’ve started to visit the attic

and rest in the pervasive silence and joy that abides there.

Most nights in the past month I’ll re-read a summary of Bill’s initial invitation.

Each reading seems like the first, as if more meaning is being transmitted.

I’ll also read a description of emptiness from Emptiness Dreaming.

I then set my intention to let go of any objects of desire or aversion

along with the subject (personal me) that is reaching out to or avoiding them.

In the space of the non-involved and nearly intangible observer

I turn on the recording of Bill’s January meeting and stretch out in bed.

Pretty quickly I fall asleep. Out. Non-existence, or at least the state of deep sleep.

In the middle of the night I wake up as I often do,

feeling as usual some state of disturbance, physically and emotionally.

This staring-into-the-abyss has been going on for many years.

Various modalities have lessened its grip but it still persists mostly on my left side.

I’m pretty sure this is my subconscious uploading to conscious awareness

old trauma that’s been stored at a cellular level or deeper.

What I notice recently is more of a specific sense

about what the distress is and where it comes from.

Shame, transgenerational. Despair, early childhood.

Terror, other dimensions.

I notice and surrender more deeply to it.

I also breathe or pray or chant or send light

or reassure with love and nurturance the hurt part

that all is well.

My sense is we’re slowly surrounding this disturbance or contraction

with emptiness.

Eventually, it too will fall into that emptiness

like something at the edge of an event horizon of a black hole.

I use the pronoun, we, here because this is a group effort.

There is an aspect of humanity’s collective consciousness our group may be working with.

So far so good.

I am residing in or at least visiting all the other levels of the “house”

except the sub-basement.

We know the Quantum Void is the foundation

they all arise from and return to, moment to moment.

Ever new and vibrant. Overflowing with possibilities.

Intellectually I understand this.

Yet, the other levels from the basement to the attic of the “house”

still overshadow the sub-basement.

All the content in existence, especially the painful stuff,

hides the reality of its non-existence in the Quantum Void.

This may be as it should.

Knowledge is structured in consciousness, according to the Vedic sages.

Braham Consciousness, absolute emptiness, they tell us,

awakens in the knower of reality

after three other stages of awakening have been realized.

The razor’s edge is the conundrum of seeking nonduality so ardently

it fosters more duality;

reducing infinity to another object pursued by the small self.

Rainer Rilke’s injunction to a young poet is helpful:

Not to seek answers but to live the questions

and trust that the answers (and the consciousness they abide in)

will unfold.

This unfoldment happens effortlessly on its own terms.

Yet a clear space free of too many concepts and impressions has to help.

The light from the attic illuminating the other floors

provides the opportunity to clear their contents.

Bill’s latest posting asks us to let go of everything we think we know,

every certainty or assumption and,

like the Rajas of ancient India, renounce our attachments to them.

In this vacuum of mental emptiness

something new and amazing will naturally emerge.

QUANTUM SOURCE ... QUANTUM WORLD ... QUANTUM VOID ... QUANTUM YOU!