The Day I Ceased To Exist
Annette Norris
1/30/20241 min read


The first 3 weeks of March 2017
I lived in solitude at an isolated hermitage just north of Memphis.
On my 18th day of solitude I took a little walk across a nearby bridge
and sat on a lush green lawn overlooking Lake Columba.
Fresh daisy flowers are blooming and a taste of spring is in the air.
I listen to melodious song birds chirping in magnificent harmonies.
I watch fluttering butterflies whirl round and round my bare feet
and chuckle aloud.
Sitting in stillness
I am aware of the wondrous depth of nature’s indwelling calm
and lovingly feel our sacred bond between all things.
I then look up and see an inexplicable halo of shimmering light
surrounding the pine trees on the east side of the lake!
Mysteriously, the entire landscape begins to vibrate.
I feel my body taken over by golden particles of fluidic light.
What I perceive is outside the spectrum of anything known.
My connection from within this world simply vanishes.
This awareness carries me beyond the human dream.
No longer am I confined by the illusional grip of creation.
Instead, I am outside of time and space
in a quantum realm;
an unimaginable nowhere,
a pure void of nothingness.
There is no me, no self, and no identity.
I have magically, mystically, and wondrously
ceased to exist.