I am nothing*
Bill Bauman
12/8/20232 min read
When asked about our identity, most of us might say:
“I am a human being.” “I am a person”—
or a self, an individual, a woman, a man, and many others.
In contrast, a spiritual person might say:
“I am a being of love,” or “I am a light being.”
Or, as the saying goes, “I am a spiritual person having a human experience.”
If we asked a quantumly rooted person “what is your identity?”,
they might respond in this way: “I am nothing.”
They might even refer to themselves as non-existent, non-being,
or perhaps emptiness personified.
Our identity, our sense of who we are, changes radically
when we enter into bigger and/or deeper dimensions.
When we open ourselves to our quantum nature, for example,
a very different sense of self awaits us.
We actually lose our historical identity as a human being.
In its place, we discover the quantum void, the realm of absolute zero,
the absence of everything we’ve known or believed to be reality.
And in discovering this priceless nothingness,
we find ourselves to have become ‘nothing.’
What is it like to be nothing? To have no tangible identity?
To leave our human sense of “self” behind? To melt into a non-identity?
To have no experience of being alive or real?
Once we get over the initial shock of being so fully ‘emptied,’
we sink into the invisible womb of the quantum void.
We settle into a state of absolute nothingness.
We float in a formless pond of nowhere-ness.
Once we’re more established there, we discover something surprising:
We’re free to see everything through the uncluttered eyes of the quantum void—
to see all creation as it really is,
not just as it has appeared to us through our human eyes.
Are you nothing? The real answer is: Yes!
Every one of us, in the underbelly of our human core, is already nothing—
complete emptiness, formless source, quantum nothingness.
We literally don’t exist.
In our quantum depths, we see through quantum eyes.
Through those emptiness-filled eyes,
we see that our cherished humanness is a wonderful phantasm of seeming existence;
our sense of ‘self’ a powerful illusion of owned identity;
our life experiences a blockbuster movie of apparent importance.
We also see that our true identity is beyond how it appears in the human movie.
When we sit in pure nothingness long enough,
it absorbs our human mind and energy into itself, step-by-step, bit-by-bit.
And, at some point in time, we become timeless;
our identity becomes spaceless;
our consciousness becomes formless.
We become nothing. We are nothing.
And that’s the point at which creation—
especially that creation of the human version of us—
starts to look exciting.